Today marks one full week since Maverick has passed. I feel I am starting to move past the sadness stage of grief towards acceptance. With this comes relief but, to be honest, also a twinge of guilt. I feel that if I'm not expressing my sadness with strong feelings of longing and tears then my connection to him is fading. Up until this point, the grief has, ironically, been holding me to him.
Regardless, a way to find closure was needed. I discovered a way to do this by scheduling a visitation with Maverick six days after he passed. I was tentative but also strangely excited about the idea. I only learned about the option from reviewing the company’s brochure (www.gatewaypetmemorial.com) during my selection of an urn for Maverick. I had never heard of a pet visitation before and the idea immediately intrigued me. I was missing him so much and the thought of seeing him again, regardless of his condition, brought a feeling of relief and I knew it would help with the closure I was seeking.
Overall, I am very glad I went forward with the visitation. It allowed me to better comes to terms with him being gone and be able to switch grief into celebration of his life.
The next day, the one-week anniversary since saying goodbye, I went outside to what I now term the "Maverick Tree" – the tree beside my house that we held the euthanasia procedure, with the same blanket he lay on, along with all his photos and albums, fur sample, collar, and leash and had a small ceremony to say "goodbye" in my own way. It’s a brand new experience to feel both deep sadness that he is gone and joy from his existence. I will continue going out to his tree every day as I have been this entire week – it really helps to bring solace and stay connected to him.
What rituals have you done to help stay connected to your Heart Dog once they have passed? Please share your advice and wisdom to our growing community of Heart Dog owners.
How can this blog help you?
This website and blog originated from the experience of learning to let go of my beloved Heart Dog, Maverick. By sharing my story and offering the opportunity for you to share yours, I hope we can all truly celebrate their lives. pay tribute, and heal from the loss of our one true canine companion. I hope this website will also raise awareness of the meaning of a Heart Dog because it is a concept that is not largely understood.