Pebbles is a spunky Pomeranian Shitzu mix owned and loved by Amy Jevtic of Beamsville, Ontario. Pebbles sadly passed away this past summer - she will be forever loved and missed by all those she knew. Although I never met her, I had the pleasure of hearing her trademark bark & growl whenever I went to Amy's for aesthetic services. Thank you Amy for sharing your Heart Dog Tribute and helping reassure all Heart Dog moms/dads out there that they are not alone when dealing with the grief of their canine soulmate.
Almost 12 years ago I fell in love with my Pebbles. I was so excited when I brought her home only weighing 1.5 lbs. She was full of love and energy! The first year was training year, but as time went on she settled in to my routine. Eventually I started to work from home which was great for Pebbles. It was so nice to be home with her! She loved it too! She was my sidekick, my best friend really, and she never left my side through tough times I went through personally. She knew when I went through my separation from my first marriage. She literally kissed my tears away. I noticed she really knew when her mommy was sad. She helped me get through a very difficult time in my life and I will always be grateful for that! Over the years our bond just grew and grew.
This past March she was diagnosed with Cushing's Disease. I was devastated! I chose to medicate her and she needed constant blood work, but the vet bill wasn't an issue. I only wanted her to be as healthy as she could be considering she was over 11 years old. But as time went on she wasn't getting better, her breathing was getting worse. She was having breathing fits every day. I knew she was not herself as her health problems were taking over. It was unbearable to see her struggle to breath on a daily basis. I knew deep down there was another underlying issue. My vet said she may be full of cancer. He offered to dig deeper to find out what else is going on with her but whatever he found, chances are he wouldn't be able to treat her.
So I made the decision to say goodbye. I just couldn't put her through anymore suffering. With her breathing problems, I couldn't walk her and it was so bad she couldn't even go outside to pee as the heat affected her so badly. I felt it wasn't fair to her, since she loved to go outside. Friends told me I did a selfless act but my goodness it was the toughest decision of my life. Having to say goodbye to my best friend was devastating. Many thoughts of guilt were all I thought of in the beginning. How could I have done what I did?! Was it the right time? Maybe I should of waited!? I cried for weeks. I missed her so very much. We had our daily routine together; I was lost without her and struggled to know how I was going to go on without her.
I must say my husband, family and friends were all so understanding. They just let me cry and gave comfort to me. Not long after she was gone, Jodi told me about what a Heart Dog is. When she was telling me about it all I could do was think Pebbles was definitely my Heart Dog! It really has brought comfort knowing I'm not the only one who has suffered such a loss. I will say time does heal the heart, as it has only been 11 weeks since I said goodbye and each day gets a little bit easier. Yet not a day goes by where I don't think of her. I did make a special spot on my dresser for Pebbles ashes, my Heart Dog. Each morning I visit my special spot for her. I tell her how much I love and miss her so. I allow myself to grieve and cry when I needed to. So to all the Heart Dog moms and dads, please know you're not the only one missing your fur baby! And it's ok to grieve in which ever way you need!
Whenever I went away and would come home, she was just so happy to see me!! Jumping and barking for hugs and kisses!
She had three special dog friends that were my moms. Mocha and her had a very special bond. Pebbles would do whatever Mocha did! Also, she loved Tassie and Dolly. Mocha and Tassie are in heaven as well.
Pebbles always let herself known when a client came to the house - she would bark then growl at the same time...lol!
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How can this blog help you?
This website and blog originated from the experience of learning to let go of my beloved Heart Dog, Maverick. By sharing my story and offering the opportunity for you to share yours, I hope we can all truly celebrate their lives. pay tribute, and heal from the loss of our one true canine companion. I hope this website will also raise awareness of the meaning of a Heart Dog because it is a concept that is not largely understood.